insecurities of a starfish

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footprints in the sand Wednesday, August 10, 2005

ive got many many itchey bitchey spots
on my legs red and ugly
i wonder why
i think there are mosquitoes
in the cinema
hehhh.

charlie and the choc fac.
was pretty exciting
i like the look of the
willy wonka bars [:
like yummeh!!
it is mixed by waterfall
which makes it light and frothy
personally i think willy wonka's kinda freakish
but he's nice i guess
in a sadistic kinda way
oh well [:

outing with teetwelve-ers was fun!

A single thread in a tapestry
Though its color brightly shine
Can never see its purpose
In the pattern of the grand design.

footprints in the sand Monday, August 08, 2005

geography tomorrow
and im still sitting on my bum
and not revising my work yet
urghhhs /:

i made the miniest paper crane today
like with a paper measuring
2cm by 2cm
around there lah
anyway, its mini (:
my baby bird
hahh [:
which almost got blown away
by the strong winds in the day

yummmy
fat yellow raisins
that oozes with juice if you squeeze it
i never realised that raisins
had juice
but its kinda cute (:

what do you call a hi and bye friend?
people you dont know anymore
whatever happened

Yes I recall skipping on breakfast to play basketball
And feeling two feet small
Sometimes you read like William Shakes
Your scent is sweet, like Betty Crocker bakes
I’d love to have your cake and eat it too

footprints in the sand Thursday, August 04, 2005

the gp mock question set me thinking
there are more advantages than
disadvantages to women
being thought of as the weaker sex?

i agreed.
its really interesting if you think about it
i think maybe
girls just let the guys think they are weaker
it boosts the male ego
and at the same time
girls benefit
from having special priorites and rights
and being treated nicely
most of the time at least
i mean, ladies first
is the result of the belief!

and i was racking through my brains
for disadvantages
and i couldnt think of many
except for gender inequalities
in those muslim and conservative socieities
which are still predominantly
made up of male chauvinists.
in modern society
which to some kind of extent
really has gender equality
and girls finally have the chance
for education and minds of their own.
its really better to be female isnt it
ahahhs
and i mentioned in the essay
whoever thinks about the
knight in distress?

Larger then the moon,
my love for you
Worlds collide, as heaven pulls us through
The secret of the world
is written in the stars
I'm carrying your heart in mine

footprints in the sand Wednesday, August 03, 2005

i think im pms-ing
it means stay away

i'm tired
i'm sick of school
sick of seeing everyone
i just wanna go on a holiday
nice long break
away from all the noise
all the crowd and the work
just me and a couple of friends
on a nice isolated beach
with coconut trees
white sand and crystal blue sea
it seems like im just painting this
pretty picture
that im not going to see
anytime soon
i can swim, tan
and play ball all day long
yawns

i should snap out of the daydream
i swear i was beginning to
drift away from reality
while typing the above sentences

But I'm not gonna let you down
darling wait and see
And between now and then
till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, me

footprints in the sand Saturday, July 30, 2005

i've suddenly realised
how the squealings of
uh-OHH and BANDIT, i mean bubbles
have made school-life fun
and not to forget
exciting long walks around
the school while talking about tadpoles (:
not to mention the constant
bitching session about
HO HO HO
teetwelve, i love!

oh, and the boring-ness
of not having a proper exciting cca
has sunken in /:
DANG!!
bridge is pretty fun
if you dont stone too much
hahh.

She's not the usual type
She wore a cowboy hat
With her red Prada boots
And a Gwen Stefani smile

footprints in the sand Wednesday, July 27, 2005

things are so screwed now
that i cant even squeeze any tears out
it just seems like everythings going wrong
beginning with my cluelessness about work
then going on to see some major bitch
too much, im sorry if im being biased here
but seriously i feel like i do have a right to feel this way
then ends with my parents getting pissed with
my silence, my heck-careness
and about me not caring about the family enough
she never listens when i say im busy
she just thinks oh so busy
then why're you online everyday then
the pain inside just seems to get stronger
its not subsiding

maybe i just sound like some angsty
teenager ranting about her
oh so horrible life
but whatever
im pissed, and thats the truth

the anger, the pain
used to go away
once i talk to people about it
or write it down somewhere
or even just think it through
but now, the pain's not going anywhere
and fact is,
im freaking jealous
even if it was in the past
seeing some scenes
just evokes such feelings
i cant control that
no matter how hard i try to

Here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
As my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost

footprints in the sand Sunday, July 24, 2005

i'm tired
looking forward to the weekend
even though it means
the much dreaded ptm
im sure ms ho is going to bad mouth me
but doesnt matter
i happily told my parents that
my teacher hates me
and that shes going to say
this and say that about me
so they listened and laughed
and didnt really care
that's good.

i need to catch up on some sleep
have been sleeping late
in order to study
i think after 2 years of jc
im going to look old and haggard /:
beauty sleep is so important!
ahahahs

suddenly ive sorted out my priorites
seems like theres so many more important things
and above all
i should get my studies up first! (:
a midyear after-thought
if i ever felt that mugging for o levels was tough
boy, i am so wrong
nowadays i just crash into bed
late at night
in some kind of drunker stupor
and fall asleep without much thought

dreaming time has been reallocted to class time ;)

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live ~~girl~~
My world...
Has twice as many stars in the sky

footprints in the sand Thursday, July 21, 2005

its been exactly twelve hours
since ive finished reading
the book
HALF BLOOD PRINCE
it has left me shocked
and lost for words
i read it for six hours
a minute of silence
to mourn the death of
AHEM AHEM please

and someone's a freaking
ASSHOLE! i hate you
you git /:
its an awesome book
thats terribly sad
and yet so important at the same time
it made all the missing pieces
in the entire series fall into place
it's a crucial book
love it, but i hate it too

footprints in the sand Sunday, July 17, 2005

BROWNIE BATTER!
You scored 85% SWEET, 70% CHUNKY, and 59% UNIQUE!

brownie batter ice cream with a rich brownie batter swirl

Mmmm....you are a very sweet mix indeed! You are warm, loving, and caring to all those around you, but you're not boring in the least! You have a wild streak and a creative, unique streak, too. You are a great friend, an interesting person, and you know how to have fun without ending up crouching over a toilet bowl. Nice!

The Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream Flavor Test written by weered1 on Ok Cupid

footprints in the sand Monday, July 11, 2005

if you know me well enough
you'd know that i hate repetitive days
cycles that never seem to end
and for me
thats how the first week of the term has been
i frigging hate it
the excitement and fun i used to have
has faded away
some friendships have been put to the test
during the holidays
and have not lived up to it

i detest boring days of
lessons home, lessons home
its disgusting
theres just nothing to do anymore
my life lacks excitement ):
next week gotta be better
or i'll die

i miss jepenga
i really do

footprints in the sand Saturday, July 09, 2005

a small boy made my day today
he remembered me!!
and smiled a BIGG SMILE
and waved!!
just imagine
a small boy riding a tricycle waving at you!
ahahahs
so cute
and he kinda stalked me on his tricycle
he remembered me waving at him last time!
and i didnt even remember
till a while later (:
innocent happy smile
so sweet
he just brightened up the day

Like fire and wood
and paper and glue
Only a few were born to follow
And the stars will show
Where the waters flow
Where the gardens grow
That's where I'll meet you
And the sun will glow
Melting all the snow
Knowing all I know
That's where I'll meet you

footprints in the sand Thursday, July 07, 2005

i got fatter
so ive been told by several people
and i think so too
urghs
okay I AM FATTER!
oh die fats die ):
my sugar intake really has to start
going down
its the sugar /:
maybe i should change to salt
which however
leads to water retention
which makes you fat too
hurrr
cos i aint no hollaFAT girl
ahahhahas
okay that was pretty random (:

im amazed
9days to harry potter
im still at my first book
as in my crash course
on harry lahh
cos its been way long since ive read them
like wayy long (:
however
i have no money
i need someone to sponsor my harry
i shall plead with my mum
but i also need to beg her for cash
to buy some other stuffs
sighhs
if only gold dubloons fell like rain
i think thats how its spelt
as in gold coins (:

I know love is a hot white light
It knocks you down
and then leaves you dry
Oh how can it be sweet mama
tell me why
Why all loves disciples
have to wither and die

footprints in the sand Wednesday, July 06, 2005

i read somewhere about using frozen bananas
to subsitute icecream
sounded pretty exciting!!
so i decided to freeze a banana
i ended up having to go through
some kind of fight before getting
to eat the frozen banana
the skin was frozen
i had to cut the head open with a pair of scissors
which happens to be meant for paper
okay. no biggie
its just a little sticky and gooey
upon peeling
i discovered that some skin was still
stubbornly stuck on to the banana
so i had to scrape it off with a butterknife
the pains i go through
just to try to sample something new
aahahhas.
the inside wasnt really frozen though
so lesson learnt -
peel before you freeze

footprints in the sand Saturday, July 02, 2005

we ( val, feli and jan )
have decided that
they wont vote me out first
if jepenga was sent for survivor
and we had to do tribal council
cos i am a GEORGRAPHER!
ahahahas
and val's going to get booted
cos who needs CHEMISTS in the wild right!
however we need a PHYSICIST
so feli's still needed
actually
who needs a HISTORIAN!
hahahahas (:
its really amusing
to think about it
like we're so damned different
and they decided that
if they gave food rations
i would be the first to start stealing frm the supplies
and jan will collect the foods
and spear fishes (:

And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How ev’rything still turns to gold
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll

footprints in the sand

THIRTEEN THINGS YOU LOVE:
1. jepenga
2. friends, all those who make me :D
3. twinkling stars and coloured clouds
4. those pretty notebooks i cant bear to ever write on
5. goood foood (:
6. animals, cuddly and sweet things
7. clothes. need i say more? (:
8. glitter
9. mini me
10. sun, sand and sea
11. the smell after the rain
12. chocolate. chocolate
13. god (:

TWELVE MOVIES:
1. two weeks notice
2. how to lose a guy in 10 days
3. minority report
4. HARRY POTTER
5. spider man
6. a walk to remember
7. pearl harbour
8. finding nemo
9. LION KING
10. MULAN
11.
12.

ELEVEN GOOD BANDS:
1. googoo dolls
2. oasis
3. the cardigans
4. sixpence none the richer
5. coldplay
6. beachboys
7. matchbox 20
8. is disney choir a band. hehhh
9.
10.
11.

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOU:
1. i like to smile (:
2. i like pigs
3. i'm short
4. i'm quite eccentric
5. hyperactive at times
6. :D
7. love company
8. i sing to myself
9. i like to eat. i appreaciate good food!
10. i'm randomed

NINE GOOD FRIENDS:
1. jepenga no.1
2. jepenga no. 2
3. jepenga no. 3
4. jepenga no. 4
5. jepenga no. 5
6. jepenga no. 6
7. ( i almost typed jepenga no. 7) YOU
8. antheaaa
9. spongeee

EIGHT FAVORITE FOODS/DRINKS:
1. YAMI YOGURT
2. subway
3. water
4. chocolate
5. sugar
6. spice
7. and everything nice
8. tuna

SEVEN THINGS YOU WEAR DAILY :
1. underwear article 1
2. underwear article 2
3. top
4. bottom
5. glasses
6. star chain
7. CHEESY SMILE

SIX THINGS THAT YOU HATE:
1. bitches
2. bengs and lians
3. liars
4. animal cruelty
5. unfairness of life
6. cockroaches

FIVE THINGS YOU DO DAILY:
1. eat
2. sleep
3. stone, no more like pebble
4. walk around aimlessly
5. hunt for food

FOUR TELEVISION SHOWS YOU WATCH:
1. manhunt
2. smallville
3. animal planet documentaries
4.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT:
1. jeans, a good pair of jeans i can go around the world in
2. HARRY POTTER
3. bag (:

TWO THINGS YOU SAY OFTEN:
1. ahahhahas
2. oh mannn thats damn dumb lahh

WHO YOU COULD SPEND THE REST OF YOURLIFE WITH:
myself (: i'm probably the only one who can put up with me

footprints in the sand Friday, July 01, 2005

i'm enjoying my few days
of supposed freedom
before the maths paper
i dont think im planning to study
not much anyway /:
im just going to FAIL FAIL IT!!
oh well
ive just lost the momentum that
kinda got ignited by the georgraphy paper
and econs paper
i like being idle
just lazing around
i can almost hear someone
mumurring
THE IMPORTANCE OF BEING IDLE
in the background already
hehhh. -.-

I know love is a hot white light
It knocks you down and then leaves you dry
Oh how can it be sweet mama tell me why
Why all loves disciples have to wither and die

So if it’s true, that love will never die
Then why do the lovers work so hard
To stay alive

footprints in the sand

two papers down
i cant get any happier than that! :D
TWO DREADED PAPERS DOWN
oh well maths is dreaded too
but its too far away to count
or at least i'd like to believe (:
actually, i kinda feel that my life
is pretty much allocative efficient
there is not much rearrangement
you can possibly do to make things any better
in some kinda odd ways (:

And I loved deeper
And I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness
I'd been denyin'
And he said some day
I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dyin'

footprints in the sand Tuesday, June 28, 2005

If I could reach the stars
I'd pull one down for you
Shine it on my heart so you could see the truth
That this love I have inside is everything it seems
But for now I find it's only in my dreams

That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You will think my love was really something good
Baby if I could change the world

If I could be king even for a day
I'd take you as my queen
I'd have it no other way
And our love will rule in this kingdom we have made
Till then I'd be a fool wishin' for the day

That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You will think my love was really something good
Baby if I could change the world
Baby if I could change the world

That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You will think my love was really something good
Baby if I could change the world
Baby if I could change the world
Baby if I could change the world

it's in some strange ways
my song for you
bye -

footprints in the sand Friday, June 24, 2005

o1.what do your friends call you?
tocks, tockies, wantock!
o2. is your bestfriend a girl?
yupp
o3. do you wear make-up?
the occasional mascara and gloss
o4. do you wear shoes with high heels?
not really
o5. do you like wearing dresses?
nooo. i feel so restricted
o6. do you have short or long hair?
funky short hair. okay its pretty funky lahh
o7. one length or layered?
layered
o8. how long does it take you to fix yourself up?
half an hour? that includes shower time!
o9. do you have a makeup kit?
not really, they're just thrown all over the place
10. if yes, what's inside?
mascara, lip gloss, nail polish.
11. how long do you take a bath?
fifteen to twenty minutes
12. do you use conditioner?
yupp. im like addicted to it or somethg
13. how do you dry your hair?
towel dry
14. what's your usual hairstyle?
errr. it looks the same everyday
15. do you panic if you have a pimple?
if its in the middle of my cheeks or somethg
16. do you often go to the salon?
define often. every 2-3 months!
17. when was the last time you went to the salon?
day before gp paper. hahhhas.
18. what did you do in the salon?
cut my hair lahh
20. rebond? have you tried?
nope. i cant, my hair's too short
21. do you paint your nails?
clear with glitter. i paint my toes, not fingers (:
22. what's your casual wear?
teeshirt shorts and slippers
23. rubber shoes or sandals?
nonee. how about flipflops!
24. how many piercings do you have?
three on my earlobes
25. do you go on a diet?
im too much of a pig to succeed
26. what brand do you like?
no special preferences (:
27. do you have "rituals" before sleeping?
stretch abit, drink half a glass of water
29. do you fix yourself anywhere?
huh? plastic surgery?? nooo
30. do you stay inside the toilet for a long time?
not really
31. do you have lots of crushes and share them withfriends?
hahahas. of course i share
32. do you blush whenever you see that special person?
depends on the intensity of liking. i try not to (:
33. what do you like in a guy?
sense of humour, confidence
34. is it fun being a girl?
its too cool to be true (:
35. what do you feel answering this?
nothing. my comp is lagging. typing is hard /:

footprints in the sand Sunday, June 19, 2005

We held hands and laughed
Then we jumped in the water
Off the jetty we’d fly
As the sun got hotter
We were any age
Floating through space
Happy for once in the human race
On this sweet sunday and into monday
Your arms wrapped around me
Where my love has found me
But am I really free

If I could read your mind
I hope I’d find
The same love I have in mine
If I could go back in time
I’d try to find you
And make up for all this wasted time

Like a broken record
I’ve stayed protected
From promises
from disappointments
I wanna hear your dreams wanna drift away
Wanna break you in
Oh I wanna stay
Stay in heaven oh in heaven
And see my life finally begin
Will we be together oh forever
Darling please let me in

i like rediscovering nice songs (:
some songs that are so familiar
but forgotten and left aside for a really long while
woohoooo (:

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i want the HUGGEE beanbag in my room
I REALLY REALLY DO
its like half the size of my bed!!
i can treat it as a bed
doubles as a chair
triples as a punching bag
quadruples ?! as a boyfriend
hehh. cos i can hug it (:
but my parents decided to be practical
and got me some wooden bench instead
which is really quite pretty
but pales in comparison next to a beanbag
which happens to be like
738494901495894dollars ):
ive always wanted a beanbag
like a big one
all my life
sighhh ):

the clock's ticking away
im another day closer to
the much dreaded exams
GEORGRAPHY
dies /:
i think i do try to study
but most of the time
i dont succeed
failed attempts to study
some effort marks please?

Poverty stole your golden shoes
but it didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me

footprints in the sand Saturday, June 18, 2005

why is it that all the best
and yummiest foods
happen to be the fattiest
the most unhealthy
and worse kinda food around?!
i was just randomly listing
out the food i have a terrible
inhumane craving for!
eggtarts, prata
ice cream, brownie
doughnuts, laksa
pizza, oyster egg
fried kway teow
i should stop before i start drooling
yummmmy

is it because of the fact that its unhealthy
and sinful
thats what makes it so goood
like how people always
do precisely the worst things possible

im impressed
eating one small cube of chocolate
inspires all these words
hmmmms (:
ohh well
it is macadamia nut chocolate!

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore

footprints in the sand Wednesday, June 15, 2005