these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

my immortal

footprints in the sand
Saturday, January 31, 2004



freaking bird flu is scaring me. im worried for my dear pets. sighs. the box in class is officially launched. began with qian's quote abt dragons. do we exist because dragons dream of us or do dragons dream of us because we exist. something like that. hmms. moving onto lotr. somethg abt aragon's speech to the man of rohan and whatever. ahhas.and another quote by debbie.something about revealing the truth. its interesting really. my eyes are blurred and fuzzy. i want to go back to..slp.... -snores- . went out shopping for presents with carolyn moo jan feli val ytd. we were lazy to go to town so jus headed to j8. unfortunately the tiny screwed up place only had that 'much' things. yea. so i was the only one who managed to buy somethg. we ate though. fat fat. -shakes head-

bone of the father, unknowingly given, you will renew your son.
flesh of the servant , willingly given, you will revive your master.
blood of the enemy, forcibly taken, you will resurrect your foe.

footprints in the sand



cny was bad this year. due to the horrid economic recession, all my ang pow shrank! damn the recession.
anywayys. took some really nice photos of my cousin. i shall put it up in an image station when im in the mood.
ive been saying this since forever seriously. (:
slacker//
yeps. surprisingly i lost weight during the new yr period. for some odd reason. maybe its the cut down on carbo and eating more junk.
hehhs. that doesnt make sense? junk is carbo!! hrmphs.
pam came to school with a BIG bag of sweets and chocolate -cough aluminium cough- ahahs. pigged out.
she bought me a snoopy imitation pouch. its pink and furry. (0.o) looks nice though. (:
i created harry and me!!! ahahs. anyone interested can chk it out. (: base by shouri
i actually went for art lessons today! such a good girl.
the relieve teacher was meryl from sec4's nephew. ahahs.
i tried doing my stupid reduction print. i honestly did kaes. but it screwed up.
so its not my fault.

heard the funniest thg today. pam's sister priscilla. is going to be taking over mrs hoo's lessons. cos fer some reason she's not going to be ard..
and the best part is. pam will have to call pris ms peh wahahhahs. (:

i haf the horrible feeling i failed my add maths retest. i dun trust wong. he gave me that look. and told me not to worry if i studied hard. grrs. what if i fail!!! -screams-
and i wun know till thursday or somethg.

there are these 3 button quails in the school. went up close to chk them out. 1 of them seriously seriously looks lyk tigger my dear baby that died erms. in sept last yr.
it even has a bald spot on the head. i love my baby tigger//

to love and to be loved

footprints in the sand
Monday, January 26, 2004



happy new year

rather fun day in school. being crazy and wacky with steffi screaming into my ear every five mins.
went out with carolyn nat jan after that. hmms. took neos!!! and they were complaining that i din smile. hrmphs.
so i looked lyk a piece of shit [ lyk usual ] in the neos.
walked ard abit. met loads of st nicks girls. went to meet dalun and then walked aimlessly ard. sighs. boring. but sort of entertaining at the same time.
then left early to meet my parents + brother. went to the temple to pay my respects to grandma grandpa and ancestors.
so crowded!
came home fer dinner. we had steamboat. tasted good.
then me + the sister + the brother + the father had a game of mahjiong. great game. (:
my dear hamster pig is injured. there's some major problem with her leg. and she keeps toppling over.
im so freaking worried. and the vet wun be opened.. till at least monday or somethg. [ lord please take care of my dear baby ]
i reali reali hope she will get well soon.

treasure what you have once you've found what you are searching for.
open my eyes and seek out my destiny.


footprints in the sand
Wednesday, January 21, 2004



yesterday was a horrible day. the lessons were boring.
absolutely boring. and i kept wanting to go out. [hehhs. i jus typed my name!!]
but i had art lessons in the afternoon.
which i reali did not want to go bcos foo was down w chicky pox
and i was in no mood for art
and it was raining.
perfect weather for slping.
but i went anywayys. and turned out reali reali sucky.
half the class went for lessons.
by 1 hr. another half of the half class left somehow. thru trickery and other means.
so the 1/4 of the original biggg class stayed on. and somehow i was one of them
cos my dad cldnt pick me up earlier.
and it was raining wooff and meoww.
cldnt stand the way the subsitute tch talked. whaamms.
so i wasted a complete afternoon pretending to be a rock.
when i cld haf been out shopping. or at home slping.
completed waste.
x(
thankfully. today was much better.
even though lessons were draggy as usual.
and life was still boring. but there was some fun injected by silly comments and laughter.
was dying of laughter from lari's show and tell song. -singing awae-
made the cny card fer foo.
he wun be there to recieve it anywayy.
right now. all i want to do is slp.
good night- (:

footprints in the sand
Tuesday, January 20, 2004



a maths chemistry physics chinese life is great mann. finally. they are over!! (:
went to do this crazy research just now. sirius is a star on the nose of the constellation canis major. and andromeda is a galaxy. its means chained lady. bellatrix is a star that is on the left shoulder on constellation orion. canis major is one of the 2 dogs of orion the hunter.. the other dog is canis minor. which is smaller. hmms. reali reali cool. and sirius has a invisible 'twin' which is some 'white dwarf' a star with an unknown density.
im absolutely fascinated by astronomy and stars. -dreams- i wanna fly fly fly. (:

footprints in the sand
Friday, January 16, 2004



plenti of thanks to carolyn janice natalie valerie for their present. (: its too cute. i shldnt be using now.. but hees. just a whinney little break to gif my brain a break. then i can produce better work! -cheers- tmr is the a maths and chemistry test. i really shld prepare. try harder. i mus perservere!! constant vigiliance. chinese new year is coming. im looking forward to next week. goanna see people.. hmms. shld try to go visit people i havent seen in a freaking long time. im going to go out and have fun. yay//

footprints in the sand
Tuesday, January 13, 2004



bleahs. just now the house was almost up in screams. sister and mother was having this huge fight...things flew. wheeee-
nevermind me. im bored. should be doing some chem now.. but feeling a little lazy. so.. hees. -guilty- had a nice sleep. dreamt that some people died after being frozen in the fridge. and they were tiny? like barbie doll size. sighs. (: and got woken up-

footprints in the sand
Sunday, January 11, 2004



my dad just got someone to transfer the video clips he took 10 over yrs ago into vcd.. so we watched and we watched. its really interesting watching yourself jumping around on tv. (: and i learned that my parents used to call me ting ting. eeks! shivers creeping down my spine liaos. ahahas. and i was horribly cute!!! sobs- [wad happened?!] and absolutely tiny. my sister looked like a monster at birth. swollen and fat and pink. with a monster expression. the good old times. buckets full of memories. but im happy now!!! (: living each day as it goes by!!! yay.

footprints in the sand



im dead meat. there are like 5 tests next week and i haven't started studying? grrs. x|
exhausted from everythg else. stupid pam is making me really really nervous. she's studying like every single day. at this rate she's going to be like her sister and make it to rj. and i'll be stuck in some pulau ubin jc. how great. just learned that more ppl are going overseas fer studies after Os. i feel so lonely.-sobs- my mom has always been saying that i'd have to study and make it on my own. and that she'll never send me overseas so that i can study if i do really badly. which is probably whats going to happen. so i'll end up in ITE..or somewhere. and i lost weight!! yay. (: took height and weight today. my height is well. uhem.. undisclosed information. but i lost half a kilo. which is really great for a person whose metabolism rate is 0. egg. and im still a nice healthy fit person. (:
im feeling really down down deep deep down. i need a BIG hug.

footprints in the sand
Wednesday, January 07, 2004



wheee. i'm dying from work even though today is only the 3rd day back to school. i still have about another 10 or 11 months of secondary schooling. lessons and more lessons. feel pressurised already. i seriously wonder how im going to survive this year. anticipating for it to pass quickly. but at the same time unwilling to move into a new environment. had plenty of fun during art yesterday.. made prints. i like my black and white piece. the negative one. (: my colored ones sucks. but i really feels good to be back at school. feels like school is my life and going back is getting back to normal. (:

anthea* ure such a sweet thg!!! thanks fer the gstbook. love it loads. muacks muacks. (:

footprints in the sand
Tuesday, January 06, 2004



first day of school whee. it completly felt like when i was back in sec 1 and i just entered st nicks fer the.... 1000th time. hees. except that the jitters were not there. and i know the entire class. so well. its was just lyk dat. hurried to hang up the scrooed up banner.. sighs. cldn't see the words on it. had plenty of fun in class. we just talked. had fun. and talked. feels good to be back. my life finally falls back into place. (: today must have been the most relaxing day we'd ever have in secondary4. and the last. sort of. wells. went fer cca. we're all prepared for the cca fair!! other than the fact that the banner's not up. [cos it fell down again!!!] we shall put it up only tmr morning. and pray fer the best. went around the school searching for my sister. stupid girl! her phone got confiscated by my mom and now i can't contact her. hrmphs. found her finally at the track. in the squad/formation thg. i happily signaled to her that my mom was coming. and her friends started laughing. so she raised her fist in the air. and asked her in-charge for permission to leave! comical sight really. (: home and away we go! (:

and i love anthea* plenty. can you believe it? she volunteered to fix up my guestbook!! (:

footprints in the sand
Friday, January 02, 2004



happy new year to everyone!!! no time for blogging today. loads of work to complete by tonight!!! -wink-

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Thursday, January 01, 2004




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