dear god. please give us the strength and the reassurance that you'll always be with us. through the good and the bad. i know you'll guide us into the light and fill our hearts with more joy and laughter than we could ever find. (:
p.s i pray for confidence for the chinese oral.
everything's back to the old routine.
wake up. school. come home. sleep
and everything repeats again.
sometimes i feel like im living the same day
over and over again. /:
my chinese oral's on thursday
the first day.
i have simply no comments.
good that i can get over it quickly
but ..
so soon?
am i even ready?
im dont feel like myself today
i feel sad. just some how..
-tugging at sides of mouth-
smile! smile!
-mouth droops back down into a frown-
okay. that's silly.
wake up. school. come home. sleep
and everything repeats again.
sometimes i feel like im living the same day
over and over again. /:
my chinese oral's on thursday
the first day.
i have simply no comments.
good that i can get over it quickly
but ..
so soon?
am i even ready?
im dont feel like myself today
i feel sad. just some how..
-tugging at sides of mouth-
smile! smile!
-mouth droops back down into a frown-
okay. that's silly.
suprise is just round the corner
i found my maths papers!
wonder if i should cheer or sulk.
cheer because i can start doing them and then get over them
and sulk cos i have to do them and i have no idea how.
you sucks!
haha have been using that to my sister
sounds so cute. (:
my tiny goldfish died.
not the one i bought.
the one that was in my house originally.
everyone please pray for dot
i found my maths papers!
wonder if i should cheer or sulk.
cheer because i can start doing them and then get over them
and sulk cos i have to do them and i have no idea how.
you sucks!
haha have been using that to my sister
sounds so cute. (:
my tiny goldfish died.
not the one i bought.
the one that was in my house originally.
everyone please pray for dot
| How to make a t o c k s |
| Ingredients: 1 part jealousy 5 parts silliness 5 parts joy |
| Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little fitness if desired! |
oh no oh no oh no!!!!
why is everything going against me!!
why get my hopes up
hrmphs./:
god is working against me.
okay he's not. but there is a good reason behind everything right?
oh no. -cries- /:
why is everything going against me!!
why get my hopes up
hrmphs./:
god is working against me.
okay he's not. but there is a good reason behind everything right?
oh no. -cries- /:
Angel's Wings
Angel's Wings are beautiful things,
like so many butterflies.
I want to fly free.
Angel's feet so soft and sweet,
Like the clouds they walk on.
I want to walk free.
Angel's hands are the golden bands,
which keeps the loved ones united.
I want to be free.
Take me back,
to where I belong.
Take me back to where I came from.
I want to be free.
Take my hand,
And walk with me.
Please help me,
I want to be free.
I want to go back to heaven.
by claire
Angel's Wings are beautiful things,
like so many butterflies.
I want to fly free.
Angel's feet so soft and sweet,
Like the clouds they walk on.
I want to walk free.
Angel's hands are the golden bands,
which keeps the loved ones united.
I want to be free.
Take me back,
to where I belong.
Take me back to where I came from.
I want to be free.
Take my hand,
And walk with me.
Please help me,
I want to be free.
I want to go back to heaven.
by claire
yay! it rhymes. and i found out something about elf!!! (:
oh screw!!! i think my dad deleted my confirmation pictures!
he asked me the other day if i loaded the pictures into the computer
and i said yes. /:
i completely forgot about those pictures!!
i was thinking about the others. the goldfishies one
and now he's away in hong kong with the camera!!!
i think those pictures died.
-stomps around the room- /:
now i wont have any memories of my confirmation.
prays hard that the teachers took many many pictures on that day so i can buy!
he asked me the other day if i loaded the pictures into the computer
and i said yes. /:
i completely forgot about those pictures!!
i was thinking about the others. the goldfishies one
and now he's away in hong kong with the camera!!!
i think those pictures died.
-stomps around the room- /:
now i wont have any memories of my confirmation.
prays hard that the teachers took many many pictures on that day so i can buy!
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: i dream too much. so i live on dreamscape?
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: at times. but only at times. (:
Do you have any secrets?: yea and im going to tell them all to you?
Do you hate yourself?: im a narcissist.
Do you like your handwriting?: i guess
Do you have any bad habits?: hating to exercise
What is the compliment you get from most people?: 'tocks, you're crazy/lame!'
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: life of a loser. whahahas. well today hasnt been great day. but i reckon i'll cheer up and it'll be called - a happy life (:
What's your biggest fear?: being emotionally alone
Can you sing?: yea. as great as the fat lady you know? (:
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: i dont remember..
Are you a loner?: at times
What are your #1 priorities in life?: love is allll arounnddd. loving and be loved by all!
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: no. definetly not. /:
Are you a daredevil?: sometimes when i feel rebellious?
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: hate myself for being too nice sometimes
Are you passive or agressive?: agressive?
Do you have a journal?:online blog. ure reading it.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: naiveness
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: i want to eat but not get fat
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: not really.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: yeah.
Do you think life has been good so far?: life's significantly great
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: cant list it... too long
What do you like the most about your body?: hair colour
And least?: fats
Do you think you are good looking?: no but i like my smile. (:
Are you confident?: when im with people im familiar with
What is the fictional character you are most like?: luna lovegood
Are you perceived wrongly?: i sort of have a split personality. you probably know the happier one.
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: yes
Hurt yourself?:almost
Been out of the country?: yeah
Eaten something that made other people sick?: most probably. i eat about anythingg
Been in love?: im not sure about that too. but almost?
Had a medical emergency?: i broke my arm (:
Had surgery?: yeah. to fix my arm
Ran away from home?: nope
Gotten beaten up?: cat fight with my sister.
Beaten someone up?: my sister and brother
Been picked on?: yeah
Slept outdoors?: yeahs
Thought about suicide?: i think i would have jumped if not for the grilles on my window.
Pulled an all nighter?: almost.
Gone one day without food?: i live to eat
Made out with a stranger?: nope
Had sex with a stranger?: nope
Kissed the same sex?: nope
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: nope
Been betrayed?: i wont say its betrayal..
Had a dream that came true?: nope but plenty of deja vu
Broken the law?: not that i remember
Met a famous person?: mmms. yea?
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: ants and snails
On purpose?: mosquitoes
Stolen anything?: a gummy.
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: yes
Miracles?: yeah
Astrology?: not really
Magic?: i believe in black magic
God?: he's my best bud
Satan?: yeah. ass hole that one. (:
Santa?: nope
Ghosts?: yeahs.
Luck?: i guess
Love at first sigh?: not really
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: possibly
Witches?: people who practice wiccan are witches?
Easter bunny?: crap
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yeah
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: nope. but its a pretty sight. (:
Do you wish on stars?: yeahs. they didnt come through
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: some versions of it. there are loads of different versions you know?
Do you think God has a gender?: i think he's a guy but he has the qualities that girls tend to possess like .. sensitivity
Do you believe in organized religion?:yeahs im a catholic
Where do you think we go when we die?: check out my previous blog entry. i believe there's this place spirits go.
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yeah
Who is your best friend?: read properly
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: nobody.
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: love with an open heart
Thing you're picked on most about?: fat. short.
Who's your longest known friend?: anthea
Newest?: melvin
Shyest?: many people
Funniest?: my sister
Closest?: elf
Weirdest?: elf
Smartest?: qian
Ditziest?: nat khoo
Friends you miss being close to the most?: this and that..
Last person you talked to online?: anthea
Who do you talk to most online?: elf
Who listens to your problems?: god
Who do you fight most with?: elf or my sister.
Who's the nicest?: me (:
Who's the most outgoing?: carolyn and jan..
Who's the best singer?: cheryl
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: no
Who's your second family?: my pets
Do you always feel understood?: not really
Who's the loudest friend?: carolyn's the loudest. [covers ears]
Do you trust others easily?: too much for my own good
Who's house were you last at?: cant seem to remember
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: no one.
Do your friends know you?: i guess
Friend that lives farthest away: li hsing. japan
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: nope. i believe in love.
What do you find romantic?: ron. serious.(:
Turn-on?: sweet acts, sensitive,shy, smiles. ehhh. why all s?
Turn-off?: lust, ego
First kiss?: -.-
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: like crap. confused.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them : yeah
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: yes
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: yeah
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: no
What is best about the opposite sex?: the way they think
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: big fat ego
What's the last present someone gave you?: thinks. my birthday was long ago.
Are you in love?: i wont call it love.. xp
Do you consider your significant other hot?: he's MIA
Who Was the Last Person...
That you laughed at?: ermm. cant remember
That laughed at you?: .. dunno
That turned you on?: ron (:
You went shopping with?: anthea. just yesterday
That broke your heart?: i keep breaking my own heart
To disappoint you?: in my dream. that person
To make you cry?: mumster
To brighten up your day?: my grandma
That you thought about?: hehehehs.
You saw a movie with?: elf nat kow louie carolyn. poa
You talked to on the phone?: sister
You saw?: grandma
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: nope
What are you wearing right now?: big green shirt and old school shorts [they just rock]
Body part you're touching right now:: hair
What are you worried about right now?: homework
What book are you reading?: goblet of fire
What's on your mousepad?: dirt and grim
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: screw
Are you bored?: no. i just dont want to study
Are you tired?: no
Are you talking to anyone online?: not really
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: nope
Are you lonely or content?: depends
Are you listening to music?:yes
GENERAL...
[ x ] Spell your first name backwards: gnitnaw
[ x ] The story behind your blogspot username: wantock cos i talk too much and i became shorter to t0ckx
[ x ] Are you homosexual: no
DESCRIBE YOUR...
[ x ] Wallet: black velvety small pouch
[ x ] Hairbrush: a funny shade of purple with black plastic bristles. foldable
[ x ] Toothbrush: white and purple colgate one
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily: necklace
[ x ] Pillow cover: noah's ark (:
[ x ] Blanket: big dark pink and cream stripped on one side and some flower dark pink and cream pattern on the other. its a quilt
[ x ] Coffee cup: white cup with 2 cartoon cats and the words CAT
[ x ] Sunglasses: dont like them.
[ x ] Underwear: plain coloured ones. either pink cream or black. xp
[ x ] Favorite shirt: white v neck giordano. the one i spilled watermelon juice on
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume: escada island and the pink one
[ x ] CD in stereo right now: poa ost
[ x ] Tattoos: nope.
[ x ] Piercing: 2 on left ear 1 on right.
[ x ] What you are wearing now: dark green shirt and school shorts
[ x ] In my mouth: my tongue
[ x ] In my head: the song that's playing
[ x ] Wishing: for you
[ x ] After this: dinner
[ x ] Fetishes: (:
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now: anthea would know considering how much i talked yesterday. (:
[ x ] Is next to you: nobody
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies: currently only prisoner of azkaban
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months: cancelling all exams
[ x ] The last thing you ate: grandma's hard biscuits. (:
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of: cockroaches
[ x ] Do you like candles: yeahs. i like the fire better.
[ x ] Do you like incense: alrite.
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood: yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in love: yup
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates: yup
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight:no. love at first sight is superficial. that's lust not love..
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven: yes
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die: burn and thrown into the sea. same goes for my dad. ahahs. (:
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy: no one. i just dislike. i dont hate
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be: unicorn
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up?: 4am
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks: yeahs. im chinese?
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candies: marshmellows. coke gummy candy
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand: nothing.
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better: why i must study
[ x ] Who is someone that you really wish was still around: blinks. i wish for everyone who died back? including my pets.
from elf's blog. cos im bored. (:
Do you live in the moment?: i dream too much. so i live on dreamscape?
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: at times. but only at times. (:
Do you have any secrets?: yea and im going to tell them all to you?
Do you hate yourself?: im a narcissist.
Do you like your handwriting?: i guess
Do you have any bad habits?: hating to exercise
What is the compliment you get from most people?: 'tocks, you're crazy/lame!'
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: life of a loser. whahahas. well today hasnt been great day. but i reckon i'll cheer up and it'll be called - a happy life (:
What's your biggest fear?: being emotionally alone
Can you sing?: yea. as great as the fat lady you know? (:
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: i dont remember..
Are you a loner?: at times
What are your #1 priorities in life?: love is allll arounnddd. loving and be loved by all!
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: no. definetly not. /:
Are you a daredevil?: sometimes when i feel rebellious?
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: hate myself for being too nice sometimes
Are you passive or agressive?: agressive?
Do you have a journal?:online blog. ure reading it.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: naiveness
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: i want to eat but not get fat
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: not really.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: yeah.
Do you think life has been good so far?: life's significantly great
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: cant list it... too long
What do you like the most about your body?: hair colour
And least?: fats
Do you think you are good looking?: no but i like my smile. (:
Are you confident?: when im with people im familiar with
What is the fictional character you are most like?: luna lovegood
Are you perceived wrongly?: i sort of have a split personality. you probably know the happier one.
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: yes
Hurt yourself?:almost
Been out of the country?: yeah
Eaten something that made other people sick?: most probably. i eat about anythingg
Been in love?: im not sure about that too. but almost?
Had a medical emergency?: i broke my arm (:
Had surgery?: yeah. to fix my arm
Ran away from home?: nope
Gotten beaten up?: cat fight with my sister.
Beaten someone up?: my sister and brother
Been picked on?: yeah
Slept outdoors?: yeahs
Thought about suicide?: i think i would have jumped if not for the grilles on my window.
Pulled an all nighter?: almost.
Gone one day without food?: i live to eat
Made out with a stranger?: nope
Had sex with a stranger?: nope
Kissed the same sex?: nope
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: nope
Been betrayed?: i wont say its betrayal..
Had a dream that came true?: nope but plenty of deja vu
Broken the law?: not that i remember
Met a famous person?: mmms. yea?
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: ants and snails
On purpose?: mosquitoes
Stolen anything?: a gummy.
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: yes
Miracles?: yeah
Astrology?: not really
Magic?: i believe in black magic
God?: he's my best bud
Satan?: yeah. ass hole that one. (:
Santa?: nope
Ghosts?: yeahs.
Luck?: i guess
Love at first sigh?: not really
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: possibly
Witches?: people who practice wiccan are witches?
Easter bunny?: crap
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yeah
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: nope. but its a pretty sight. (:
Do you wish on stars?: yeahs. they didnt come through
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: some versions of it. there are loads of different versions you know?
Do you think God has a gender?: i think he's a guy but he has the qualities that girls tend to possess like .. sensitivity
Do you believe in organized religion?:yeahs im a catholic
Where do you think we go when we die?: check out my previous blog entry. i believe there's this place spirits go.
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yeah
Who is your best friend?: read properly
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: nobody.
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: love with an open heart
Thing you're picked on most about?: fat. short.
Who's your longest known friend?: anthea
Newest?: melvin
Shyest?: many people
Funniest?: my sister
Closest?: elf
Weirdest?: elf
Smartest?: qian
Ditziest?: nat khoo
Friends you miss being close to the most?: this and that..
Last person you talked to online?: anthea
Who do you talk to most online?: elf
Who listens to your problems?: god
Who do you fight most with?: elf or my sister.
Who's the nicest?: me (:
Who's the most outgoing?: carolyn and jan..
Who's the best singer?: cheryl
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: no
Who's your second family?: my pets
Do you always feel understood?: not really
Who's the loudest friend?: carolyn's the loudest. [covers ears]
Do you trust others easily?: too much for my own good
Who's house were you last at?: cant seem to remember
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: no one.
Do your friends know you?: i guess
Friend that lives farthest away: li hsing. japan
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: nope. i believe in love.
What do you find romantic?: ron. serious.(:
Turn-on?: sweet acts, sensitive,shy, smiles. ehhh. why all s?
Turn-off?: lust, ego
First kiss?: -.-
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: like crap. confused.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them : yeah
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: yes
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: yeah
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: no
What is best about the opposite sex?: the way they think
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: big fat ego
What's the last present someone gave you?: thinks. my birthday was long ago.
Are you in love?: i wont call it love.. xp
Do you consider your significant other hot?: he's MIA
Who Was the Last Person...
That you laughed at?: ermm. cant remember
That laughed at you?: .. dunno
That turned you on?: ron (:
You went shopping with?: anthea. just yesterday
That broke your heart?: i keep breaking my own heart
To disappoint you?: in my dream. that person
To make you cry?: mumster
To brighten up your day?: my grandma
That you thought about?: hehehehs.
You saw a movie with?: elf nat kow louie carolyn. poa
You talked to on the phone?: sister
You saw?: grandma
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: nope
What are you wearing right now?: big green shirt and old school shorts [they just rock]
Body part you're touching right now:: hair
What are you worried about right now?: homework
What book are you reading?: goblet of fire
What's on your mousepad?: dirt and grim
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: screw
Are you bored?: no. i just dont want to study
Are you tired?: no
Are you talking to anyone online?: not really
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: nope
Are you lonely or content?: depends
Are you listening to music?:yes
GENERAL...
[ x ] Spell your first name backwards: gnitnaw
[ x ] The story behind your blogspot username: wantock cos i talk too much and i became shorter to t0ckx
[ x ] Are you homosexual: no
DESCRIBE YOUR...
[ x ] Wallet: black velvety small pouch
[ x ] Hairbrush: a funny shade of purple with black plastic bristles. foldable
[ x ] Toothbrush: white and purple colgate one
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily: necklace
[ x ] Pillow cover: noah's ark (:
[ x ] Blanket: big dark pink and cream stripped on one side and some flower dark pink and cream pattern on the other. its a quilt
[ x ] Coffee cup: white cup with 2 cartoon cats and the words CAT
[ x ] Sunglasses: dont like them.
[ x ] Underwear: plain coloured ones. either pink cream or black. xp
[ x ] Favorite shirt: white v neck giordano. the one i spilled watermelon juice on
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume: escada island and the pink one
[ x ] CD in stereo right now: poa ost
[ x ] Tattoos: nope.
[ x ] Piercing: 2 on left ear 1 on right.
[ x ] What you are wearing now: dark green shirt and school shorts
[ x ] In my mouth: my tongue
[ x ] In my head: the song that's playing
[ x ] Wishing: for you
[ x ] After this: dinner
[ x ] Fetishes: (:
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now: anthea would know considering how much i talked yesterday. (:
[ x ] Is next to you: nobody
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies: currently only prisoner of azkaban
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months: cancelling all exams
[ x ] The last thing you ate: grandma's hard biscuits. (:
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of: cockroaches
[ x ] Do you like candles: yeahs. i like the fire better.
[ x ] Do you like incense: alrite.
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood: yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in love: yup
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates: yup
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight:no. love at first sight is superficial. that's lust not love..
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven: yes
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die: burn and thrown into the sea. same goes for my dad. ahahs. (:
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy: no one. i just dislike. i dont hate
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be: unicorn
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up?: 4am
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks: yeahs. im chinese?
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candies: marshmellows. coke gummy candy
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand: nothing.
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better: why i must study
[ x ] Who is someone that you really wish was still around: blinks. i wish for everyone who died back? including my pets.
from elf's blog. cos im bored. (:
drive myself crazy thinking of you
why call this a holiday if youre planning on filling every single day with work. /:
annoyed at the school
at the government
for cheating my feelings
and declaring it the june holidays!
feel hollowfied.
there's so much to be done
yet i dont know how to start
and what to do
ironic isnt it
thanks to the almighty anthea*
who has once again rushed to my resuce
and save my blog from self destruction
i changed the layout
the whole world's probably seen it elsewhere before
but i dont care.
at least i can feel the potterish mania. (:
why call this a holiday if youre planning on filling every single day with work. /:
annoyed at the school
at the government
for cheating my feelings
and declaring it the june holidays!
feel hollowfied.
there's so much to be done
yet i dont know how to start
and what to do
ironic isnt it
thanks to the almighty anthea*
who has once again rushed to my resuce
and save my blog from self destruction
i changed the layout
the whole world's probably seen it elsewhere before
but i dont care.
at least i can feel the potterish mania. (:
feeling sort of frustrated now.
its like i have to go do something really really badly now
but not knowing what to do.
irritated i guess. but by what?!
screww. i need a new layout. harry potter. /: i must
if not i shall die like tomorrow.
i have this theory.
thought of it while waiting for the train with anthea.
heaven is heaven to those here on earth [that's us /:]
and earth is actually heaven to those on heaven.
and you live a life on earth.
and when you die
you go heaven and live another life.
and then you die in heaven
and you get back on ground and live another live.
that way both heaven and earth wont get over-crowded.
interesting how the human mind works.
smiles at own's brilliancee (:
only a fool as stupid as me me I would splatter water melon juice on a white shirt.
super dumbbbb!!
was about to leave the house in like 5 mins?
and eating the fat watery water melon
and i splattered!
so i got water melon juice on a pure nice clean pressed white top. /:
so i had to change
and just grabbed any old top
and it didnt go with everything else.
because i was wearing a long dangly chain
and the other top was round necked one?
/:
darn.
and i think my shirt didnt really go with the skirt
crapp.
but i just went out looking funny anyway.
its like i have to go do something really really badly now
but not knowing what to do.
irritated i guess. but by what?!
screww. i need a new layout. harry potter. /: i must
if not i shall die like tomorrow.
i have this theory.
thought of it while waiting for the train with anthea.
heaven is heaven to those here on earth [that's us /:]
and earth is actually heaven to those on heaven.
and you live a life on earth.
and when you die
you go heaven and live another life.
and then you die in heaven
and you get back on ground and live another live.
that way both heaven and earth wont get over-crowded.
interesting how the human mind works.
smiles at own's brilliancee (:
only a fool as stupid as me me I would splatter water melon juice on a white shirt.
super dumbbbb!!
was about to leave the house in like 5 mins?
and eating the fat watery water melon
and i splattered!
so i got water melon juice on a pure nice clean pressed white top. /:
so i had to change
and just grabbed any old top
and it didnt go with everything else.
because i was wearing a long dangly chain
and the other top was round necked one?
/:
darn.
and i think my shirt didnt really go with the skirt
crapp.
but i just went out looking funny anyway.
everyone is still split and we all lack this bond.
and we came together as strangers and left as accquaintances.
-.-" big deal.
but well it's over.
maybe i should join some ministry.
just dont know what though. /:
im going to be a stalker. and shall stalk.... ^.^
hahas. its one lame funny secret. xp
if i'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that i am?
is there any way that i can stay in your arms?
i had a horrible dream.
i was humiliated,running,escaping throughout the whole dream.
and i even fell on a bed of bugs and mealworms. ):
but i guess it was funnny?
hrmphs. someone in my dream made me so disappointed. /:
that better not happen in real life.
confirmation's this sunday.
i dont want everything to end so soon.
even before we get to know other people well.
sighs.i can only dream.
it would be heaven here on earth
more perfect than the rainbow after the rain
and i would be more complete
than the pink sunset over the horizon
the kelong was great.
the best part of it was when we went to this tiny island
just five minutes away
white sandy beach
clear water
pretty sea shells
swaying coconut trees
and silence
it felt like a private island seriously.
i love it. i would live there for the rest of my lives and i would be totally contented.
one day
im going to get a nice pretty beach house
where you can see the shore from your window
and stars from the garden
and i shall live there. (:
i'll be your dream
i'll be your wish, i'll be your fantasy
i'll be your hope, i'll be your love
be everything that you need
i'll love you more with every breath
truly madly deeply do
i will be strong, i will be faithful
coz I'm counting on
a new beginning
a reason for living
a deeper meaning (yeah)
i want to stand with you on a mountain
i want to bathe with you in the sea
i wanna lay like this forever
until the sky falls down on me
and when the stars are shining
brightly in the velvet sky
i'll make a wish send it to heaven
then make you want to cry
the tears of joy for all the
pleasure in the certainty
that we're surrounded
by the comfort and protection of
the highest powers
in lonely hours
the tears devour you
i want to stand with you on a mountain
i want to bathe with you in the sea
i wanna lay like this forever
until the sky falls down on me
oh can you see it baby?
you don't have to close your eyes
coz it's standing right before you
all that you need will surely come
i'll be your dream
i'll be your wish, i'll be your fantasy
i'll be your hope, i'll be your love
be everything that you need
i'll love you more with every breath
truly madly deeply do
i want to stand with you on a mountain
i want to bathe with you in the sea
i wanna lay like this forever
until the sky falls down on me
it rocked. yea babyy. (:
the first day was nothing much.
just settling in and making ourselves comfortable.
i accidentaly pushed the whole role of toilet paper[with my toiletries bag]down into the toilet bowl.
so no one could use it until i got it out with a broom handle on saturday
so bloody stupid!
in the dorm at night trying very hard to fall asleep
but unfortunately some -censored- people were making so much noise!!
seriously i understand that its camp and people talk and yea but some are really inconsiderate?!
talking and giggling so friggin loudly.
seriously quite irritating?
and we were shhhing them so many times
than one freaking -toot- was like
shh what shh larhs! no manners. -.-
they realised people are trying to slp?
screwed up.
ended up slping less than 2 hours.
woke up at 0430 the next morning to so there wouldnt be long toilet queues
but there were cockroaches in the toilet!!
grrs. they killed a few
squealch
eww /:
so this smart girl (: waited till someone was done with that certain cubicle
asked to check if they were any creepy crawlies
and then went for a quick shower in the icy cold water
seriously wasnt that bad cos the cold water woke us up
and kept us up for quite a while.
played some games afterwards.
i got ruffia stringed to jesse
as in put my arm through his arm and tie my wrist together
my hands were falling off from lack of circulation.
slipper dropped in middle of game so ran around one shoe footed. (:
and this partner game. funny funny.
melvin and i were paired together
had to learn about each other and they asked questions
but they didnt ask us.
and we had to find each other's slippers frm 2 big piles of left and right shoes.
i was fast! (:
had talks, praise and worship.[yea!!!]
we sounded like angels when we sang together (: [im an angel!]
a skit about life choices - i was the bad gang influencing the people!
hehs. with melissa and wads his name being super gangsta.(:
christine,petrina were supposedly the good people. -.-
one group came up with this skit really corny!
all the guys acted as girls and girls as guys
including jean?[how to spell] shawn, russell, kenneth and a few other big tall guys being girly.
then kimberly dinah dora katherine and the girls were supposed to be guys picking 'girls' up at the pub (:
i fell asleep during the one hour break time and woke up refreshed!
had healing it rocked.
irene is so powerful! most of the people that went to her got slain[that means piak down on the floor in semi conscious state for couple of mins]
darn. went to another teacher for healing but i felt really happy and light and good after the session. (:
couldnt stop talking!
the parents came and we exchanged letters with them.
the letter from dadster and momster was really sweet(:
the brought chestnuts for me to eat!! [wahhahas]
had a funny sharing session.
so of the people went up to say what they feel about the camp
and was really amusing!
jamie's such a bimbo!!
fell dead asleep on saturday night
was a complete rock and slpt all the way till 6 even though our alarm was at 0445?
slept through the alarm. -.-
christine and i went to shower. but there was no one in the girls toilet at all
and there was this creepy little cockroach crawling about
i refused to shower there.
so we went to the guys toilet to shower.
apparently so did claire leanne and victoria
they had heater there! even though there were only 2 cubicles.
according to victor and joshua there was a big frog/toad hiding behind the pails but i didnt see it. -.o
no fun.
they said to meet at 0630 but most of the people arrived only at 0730.
i was early. (:
had 2 cups of concentrated nescafe and another diluted cup of it.
and one cup of nestum + 2 biscuits.
fell asleep on the canteen table while waiting for the bus. and woke up feeling fuzzified.
had a funny bus ride.
was sitting on cheryl's legs all the while.
and we were playing some lame word game
laughed till our sides ached.
went for mass and then dismissed.
now i miss camp.
dont regret going!! (:
but glad to be back in my comfy bedddd.
zzZZ.
shall go and slp. (:
just realised dan radcliffe's acting has improved. seriously improved by bounds and leaps! hehes. froggy leap! (: i cant seem to get the scene where harry's telling aunt marge they use the cane [at st brutuss school for incurably criminal boys] -winks- and he's like ooh so cute. smirk look. he'll be a great slytherin. and harry rocks. ron rocks too. -drools-
going to church camp in a while. seriously quite excited. everybody says its really really good. cant wait. but the thought about dorms and toilets make me shiver. fine. will try to imagine myself being at hogwarts and the house elves forgot to clean or something. okay lame. (: will miss everybodyy + lucky [snuffles!]; moonlight; the chickens; my good old fighthing fish [oh darn he doesnt have a name! mms. how about hedwig.] and my dear goldfishies.
will be going on a short trip to the kelong! yeah hooo. after camp so wont be seeing anyone around till wednesday or thursday.
toast to summer holidays!
i watched prisoner of azkaban last night. and i cant find the right word to describe it. far more magical than magical. how's that. let's practice eng movie reviews:
harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban is the latest installement of the popular series. hmm -.- boring. okay. the movie is filled with yummy bites that never gives the audience a single second of boredom. except for the extraordinary lonngg commericals before it started. alfonso really brought out the essence of the book. its much more than just a plain adaptation of the book. instead you feel the magic. one can really laugh along and be scared. as if one's in the movie itself. the movie leaves you wondering at times about various issues. like the one in __ and not to mention the movie's filled with eyecandyy! alrite. that was lame. but seriously i mean it. it ROCKED.
got a nasty burn in chemistry prac today. from selene's evil;hot test-tube. size of a 5cent coin on my right wrist. /: