insecurities of a starfish

The Creator
Your Jobs: You need a job where you can put your
creative resources to good use. You can be a
teacher , manager, counselor, spiritual leader,
journalist, or designer.
Love:You need someone who can accept your moodiness and
learn to deal. You cannot have someone who will
constantly put you down, order you around, or
ignore you. You need a listener who cares about
your rapidly changing feelings. You may set
your standards too high.Your dream guy= Spike from Buffy the Vampire SlayerYour dream girl= Rinoa from Final Fantasy 8, Alyssa
from Chasing Amy
Most Likely...You most likely...Are a Gemini, Cancer, or TaurusLike arty movies and dramasDont play any sportsHave two sides to youLike movies that make you thinkFollow a religion
Best Friends: Dreamers, Social ButterfliesLove Interests:Dreamers and other CreatorsEnemies:Villians and Kings

COMPLETE~~With Text Images~~The Super Ultimate Personality Quiz: Who are you? (With long answers!) All answers available, including your ideal job, ideal love interest, and more all in one answer!

surprisingly its rather accurate. (: scary!

footprints in the sand Saturday, October 30, 2004

twelfth night is a play with too few complications!
other than the thing about mistaken identity and disguises
there is simply no inner plot!
urghs.
and in that lies my biggest problem
since i poor monster :D
tend to over analyse and simply love plot in plots.
i am completly hopeless in twelfth night /:
and that also explains my obsession with
i'm king of the castle
which happens to have lots of deeper meanings
and symbolism (:
KOTC rockkkkkkkkkkkk

energy level : 5/5

Don't wanna love you if you don't love me

Don't wanna need you when you won't need me too

footprints in the sand Friday, October 29, 2004

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you’re bleeding
No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

footprints in the sand Wednesday, October 27, 2004

you dont always get back what you give
guess its always been somewhere in my subconscious
just that i never saw it
whatever it is
whats happened is in the past
and as you try to forget
and understand
one episode after another
its still you.
retreating back into a shell wont help
just have to go on
and let whats ahead come

You want to know more, more, more about me
Got to know reverse psychology
I'm the reason why you can't get to sleep
I'm the girl you never get just quite what you see

footprints in the sand Monday, October 25, 2004

Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold
But every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free

shadow

footprints in the sand Thursday, October 21, 2004

urghs.
heard this song last night but i dunno whats the title ):
goes something like
i'm a man who will fight for you honour...
knight in shining armour

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel

footprints in the sand Monday, October 18, 2004

last day of school was totally fabulous!! (:
2 soccer matches were being held in the hockey pitch at the same time
one horizontal and one vertical
and we were sort of running across each other's teams?!
but really fun though
and i never knew jacob's ladder could be so fun
the people calling out questions were shouting things like
ln e and root of these and that
it was like some mental sum match!
elf and i got called like 3 times!
urghs.
4d had this party during recess
candice bought cake
yummy
and carolyn though of getting a pe tee to collect autographs
i bought size30
the smallest one availabe :D
so now ive got a beautiful tiny shirt filled with colourful signatures (:

But when we leave this year
we won't be coming back
No more hanging out
cause we're on a different track
And if you got something
that you need to say
You better say it right now
cause you don't have another day

footprints in the sand Sunday, October 17, 2004

photos are up!! (:
go see

I'm having trouble saying what I mean
With dead poets and drum machines

footprints in the sand Friday, October 15, 2004

if i could turn back time
i miss the days
that was filled with constant laughter
hours that tick by while i wonder...
when i dared to open my heart
and reach out.
sometimes
i feel like ive changed
the passion that ran through me has frozen
numbing me

That once upon a time
When love, love was a white dove
And hope, long live hope, could spin the whole world 'round

footprints in the sand Monday, October 11, 2004

stop trying to change my mind
ive already decided
so why dont you support me in what im going to face
you have my best interests at heart
but you have to realise that
what i want is not what you want
it hurts to know that i dont have your support in what i do
but it doesnt matter
im still living life the way i want it to be

every step you take
just brings it all together
you gotta keep the faith
when all seems lost forever

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results were....
alright i guess.
on the first day was good
then it got worse
and worst!!
arghhs
just thankful that i can make it into jc (:

footprints in the sand Friday, October 08, 2004

we are not going to stop trying
not a single one of us.
i simply refuse to accept the fact that we are just going to give up.
i mean, just look at us.
what are we turning into?
its as if we've all become inhumane monsters
feeding on our own friends' weaknesses.
no. we've become far worse than that.
all we freaking care about is ourselves.
me me me me ME.
why cant we just take a look around
and see that the whole world is suffering just like we are.
look honey, you are not alone in this.
somewhere in you, you know that you care.
just like we all do.
but why do we choose to ignore it.
just for the sake of our own comfort?
YEAH. maybe you think it makes you feel better.
but really does it?
does it really feel good to push everything aside and slowly let it eat away at your soul.
fuck you know it doesnt.
and so do i.
call me selfish, but i for one dont wanna see this happening to us.
but ultimately, if you feel that and it has been nothing but an empty friendship,
and you are genuinely happy with the way things are now,
then i guess nothing we do will ever put things right again.

we don't want to let you go.
we just wish you feel the same way too.

love, jan.

footprints in the sand Tuesday, October 05, 2004

jan's story-telling and singing
nat's silence and her guru-likeliness
pam's fan-girl screams
val's fierce look and scolding 'ji tan!
isa's dance moves and wackiness
feli's pooh face

im not intending to lose any of it.

So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see
what your love means to me

footprints in the sand

people make mistakes
but thats cos we arent perfect
she's already done her part
i hope you will do yours too
she treasures your friendship
and is terribly upset about all this
i dont believe that you are unable to give others a chance
and i really dont see why you cant forgive
go back and start over again
thats probably your greastest weakness
im disappointed at the way you reacted
its as though all these times were not worth anything
and these bonds mean nothing

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i really wish for things to be that way again
now i really dont know what to do about all this
none of us like whats going on
but we have no idea how to untangle this big mess too
and i feel that by pretending its okay
will not solve the problem
we're just taking the easy way out ):

footprints in the sand

a true friendship needs time and effort to be built up
they dont just appear in the split second
its part of a give and take
two people can be the best of friends
or they can be each other's worse enemy
friendship is a promise
not a choice
and if you will just open your heart
and your arms
you will see that there are true friends all around.

you dont become friends with the most perfect person
you become friends so that you can enjoy the good and the bad
of that person
you can only have a fufilling friendship
if you're able to help each other with your flaws
and be together to built a lasting friendship.

you and you
hope that you will think about what you want out of your friendships

footprints in the sand Monday, October 04, 2004

sister invasion ! :D
wox here. mwuahah (:

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Red and yellow and pink and green,
Purple and orange and blue,
I can sing a rainbow,
sing a rainbow,
sing a rainbow too!

footprints in the sand Saturday, October 02, 2004