JEPENGA
; i miss you all too bloody much
; and i need a jepenga recess
; so heres a tribute
; to six great chicks!!!
; who have made my life
; ahem. my favourite word
; magic

; in no order of preference
; rather in order of order
; heres to ..
; jepenga

janice*
You’re my sunshine after the rain
You’re the cure against my fear and my pain
‘Cause I’m losing my mind
When you’re not around
It’s all because of you

valerie*
Especially for you I wanna tell you
you mean all the world to me
How I'm certain that our love was meant to be
You changed my life
You showed me the way

pamela*
You and only you can make me feel the way I do
You and only you can make it better
You and only you can do the freaky things you do
And I’m so into you and that’s forever and ever

natalie*
You taught me how to love
What it's of, what it's of
You never said too much
But still you showed the way
And I knew from watching you
Nobody else could ever know
The part of me that can't let go

carolyn*
And she believes in me
I`ll never know just what she sees in me
I told her someday if she was my girl
I could change the world with my songs
but I was wrong
But she has faith in me
And so I go on trying faithfully
Forever in my heart she will remain

felicia*
I know I'm truly blessed
For ev'rything you give me
Blessed
For all the tenderness you show
I'll do my best
With ev'ry breath that's in me
Blessed

; and to conclude this tribute
; heres my message

'Cause with you I can let my hair down
I can say anything crazy
I know you'll catch me
right before I hit the ground
With nothing but a T-shirt on
I never felt so beautiful
Baby,as I do now
Now that I'm with you

Anytime you need a friend
I will be here
You'll never be alone again
So don't you fear
Even if you're miles away
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely

; to end off
; a trademark
; just in case youve forgotten
; heres a smiley (:

footprints in the sand
Sunday, January 30, 2005



it wont be too long
find out where you belong
when youre feeling afraid and alone
just remember two words - hold on

thats one mysterious song
in my playlist
its supposedly hold on by good charlotte
but im sure its not
cos the lyrics sure dont match/:
but yeah its a nice song!
whatever it is supposed to be (:
someone tell me what it is if you know okay
i need the lyrics!

i've eaten a few sliced diced
pieces of the chinese sausage
with my pineapple rice for dinner!
this one's really good
i think my dad's friend from hk gave it to him
and i simply couldnt resist the
alcohol-ish aftertaste!
but its deliciously sinful /:

footprints in the sand
Saturday, January 29, 2005



im a silly animal
i hate myself for being silly
once again
im superficial
die tocks die!
dont be superficial!!
-screams and kills herself
im a superficial pig
that believes in images
and testimonials
nonono
dont believe it
my heads running loose
and bringing my heart along with it
damn
i dont want to go through
the whole shit again!
looks are unreliable
i just wish that there were more reasons
but i have no idea whats happening
/:
lovers they may cause you tears
go ahead release your fears

footprints in the sand
Friday, January 28, 2005



i feel like im a liar
by not telling you the truth
by not saying what i know
but its a major conflict
going on in my head
yes and make you upset
or no and just hope for the best
i know so many truths
but without enough evidence
what can i say
i do really hope
that whatever you say is true
but why does the little voice
shout NO
perhaps
you wont be
broken and shattered
perhaps it is all true
so for now
i can only hope
and pray for the best
and just wish that
you'll do what
is sensible
and what is right

footprints in the sand
Thursday, January 27, 2005



i drew a jepenga stick picture (:
its cute
rather stupid looking
but considering that its my artwork
its cute.
hehh :D
and i was suppose to be in the middle
but somehow after drawing by instinct
and by who looks better next to who
elf ended up at the middle
eeks. darn
and it was suppose to be my picture!
ahahha
i shall show you all one of this days
when elfs new computer comes
so i can steal her scanner to scan it in
(: me ish pwout of maii art worgg

if loving you with all my heart's a crime
then im guilty

footprints in the sand
Sunday, January 23, 2005



i think everyone should call me wantock
cos its really sad to be called wanting
not say really really sad
its just odd
cos it makes me feel like im strangers with the person
sighs
no one at cj calls me tocks!!
other than the stnicks people
so sad!
bahhh.
even zhuang called my wantocks
sometimes too lahhh
urghs
and i think mr wong thought that my name was wantock too
ahahas. oh well ):
my throat hurts!


footprints in the sand
Saturday, January 22, 2005



WHO ;

makes you smile : my friends and my mum (:
pays your cellphone bills : parents wahahah
do you think loves you : the whole world!
do you want to slap : eeks. that bitch in school
is the first on your phonebook : dad

WHAT ;

dont you like about in this life : the pain that human has caused
do you want to do right now : jump around and be happy
is it that makes you smile : seeing those that i love
bothers you : racism and religio-ism
colour signifies your personality : i have a colourful personality. red and pink at times, blue once in a while and gray black and white at others
do you like in your house : the comfy bed with my squashhy bolster :D and everything else lah

WHEN ;

is your birthday : 251288. the whole world was awaiting my birth. didnt you see those tinsel? (:
did you last see your school : 4 hours ago? wont be seeing you for a few days though :D
will you get serious in your life : i do try to get serious. its just that i fail terribly all the time
do you think there will be war peace : armageddon [wox im a copycat /: ]
did you do your last prank : i dont prank people. im too noble for that. hahh. (:

WHERE ;

do you live : seletar
is your school located : whitley road . or so the school diary says
do you hang-out the most : at home
were you born : east shore hospital if im not wrong
do you plan to have your end of year holiday : i hope to go to switzerland. but its so far away!
are you now : at home in my cosy mosquito dominated study

HOW ;

would you define love : patient , understanding and eternal
do you want your burial to be : i want to be cremated and maybe being thrown into the sea. i dont like those urns /:
freaky can you get : i cant get freakier than i already am
do you listen to music : through the computer speakers blasting to drown out other sounds (:
do you live your life : according to my mood swings
interesting are you : very i would say. like duhh! (:

footprints in the sand
Thursday, January 20, 2005



i went to ikea today
bought another jar among other things again!
i have a soft spot for jars apparently
hehh. ikea jar collection! :D
especially fat and short jars
maybe is bcos they remind me of myself
i dont think i shld be sounding so positive about it
i wanted to get one really big jar
but my mum was funny
she asked if i wanted to store gold nuggets in it
lame /:
so tomorrows monday again
not sure if im looking forward to yet another week

I miss those days and I miss those ways
When I got lost in fantasies
In a cartoon land of mysteries
In a place you won’t grow old
In a place you wont feel cold

footprints in the sand
Sunday, January 16, 2005



i miss being wantock
being me ):
im comfortable with the new class and everythg
but at times
i just realise that being with the gang
jepenga
4diligence
seems just a tad more comfortable
i can be wacky
can go a little hyper and start doing silly things
but everyone knows thats just me
but now it seems that
i have to be just a little less crazy
a little more controlled
so as not to intimidate people
its almost like a facade /:
and to a certain extent
i also miss the familiar feeling
of being able to walk beside just anyone
and still be able to feel completly at ease
not having to attempt to strike up a conversation
i miss the hand holding
the way i can simply grab anyone and dash through the corridors
oh well
ignore me
im just feeling blue ):


But with you I can let my hair down
I can say anything crazy
I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground

footprints in the sand
Friday, January 14, 2005



lessons are not that bad seriously
even though im starting to have second thoughts on georg
the amount of things you have to memorise is rather terrifying
seems like the notes that you use for a month is more than the
entire o level syllabus
shivers-
however its really interesting
and im not willing to give it up
shall have to put in more effort!
and im proud to say that i more or else understand partial fractions
it tends to get a little confusing once in a while
but i think ive gotten the basic concept
shows that if i really start listening right from the start i wont get lost (:
chinese is boring though.
like really boring!! /:
i think gp sounds interesting
at least so far its been rather cool
im getting adjusted to jc life seriously
even the part where millions of tall people are towering over you
all over the school /:
i enjoy the little breaks between lessons
and much as i hate the walking around
i think its better than sitting about in a class!
pe sucks but since im in the lousy group im saved! (:

that unspoken feeling
of knowing that right now is all that matters

footprints in the sand
Thursday, January 13, 2005



i went home yesterday
cjc rocks true enough
but the feeling of being back in st nicks
is rather hard to explain
a little similiar to the feeling you get
after being on a long holiday
and then there you are in the plane
about to land
when the captain announces that we've touched down in singapore
the sort of warmth in your heart
and feeling that it is somewhere you truly belonged
i guess this is the result of spending 10 years in st nicks
it was really great
seeing all the teachers and juniors
and not forgetting the best part
which is getting to see so many of us from fourdee
after quite a few days apart
and the moment i saw all those familiar faces
i felt like things were finally back to normal again!
i really am hopelessly in love with diligence!
especially now that we've gone different routes
i've become really thankful for our superb class
absence makes the heart grows fonder
so true
and i was also so glad to see mooo
meeting her in the toilet was funny
since i havent seen her since so long ago
while i just saw carolyn last week
miss her all the same
but i guess it wasnt that bad
we wanted to eat from orange bowl
but sadly it wasnt open
however i stilll got to drink the too sweet and too cold ice milo
that never fails to make me cough
and as always i coughed after drinking it!
getting to sit in the art room was funky too
despite it being in an ugly shade of ducky yellow
i really do prefer the dusty white walls
with foot prints in the lower parts of it
the art room felt the same
warm peaceful and very inspiring
just sitting in it makes me want to draw (:

st nicks - once a home ; eternally a home!

footprints in the sand
Sunday, January 09, 2005



despite all that i said in my previous entry
i have changed my mind about cjc
its fun. as in fun fun (:
and my class is great!!
we're becoming really bonded now
and everybody isnt as bad as they appeared on the first day
ive also gotten to know so many more people!
exciting (:
i just love knowing more people
introductury lectures were not that bad
even though lt6 was freezing
but we cuddled together for warmth
so it wasnt that bad
i must say that the student council planned a really great orientation
and im now getting increasingly tempted to stay after first 3 months
i guess it all depends then

Restless tonight cause I wasted the light

footprints in the sand



so the years have past
memories of 2004

amaths retest that marked the beginning of our year
hearts thupping away
me myself being very sure that i wasnt going to make it
but i still managed to scrape through it

rushing to finish the literature project with val feli ocp and ingrid
the many days devoted to flipping through i'm the king of the castle
in a feeble attempt to search for suitable quotes
those days we devoted to literature
shakespeare would be proud

muzikathon was fun
with everybody buying chocolates
and having no lessons for most of the day
with ms nair's silly prank! to top it off

the formation of jepenga
that fateful flag day
we did have fun selling flags
but sitting at the mrt station was more fun
and do you remember
?we were standing according to height
and our colours in the mrt station
silly things we do (:
attempting to figure out our clique name
which went from 7superstar to jepenga
with bits of janepeg and nuwegg in between

the sweaty days in class
from the extreme hotness of the days
and the radiating heat from our class!
we even had to get fan installed

the panic to study for chinese O levels
rather painful for me seeing that i screwed up my prelims and had no faith
in myself whatsoever for the o levels
it didnt turn out that bad though
i still remember grinning to someone
selene i think after finishing the paper in the mpr
i felt so relieved after the paper

after that came the prisoner of azkaban movie craze
everything was hectic
and everyone was excited for the movie
elf dan and my sister
sitting there till the credits ended
enduring the cold with our asses freezing off
but we knew it was worthwhile!

going through my confirmation camp
wow. it wouldnt be possible without the whole group of us
especially christine cheryl and petrina
the cockroachey bathroom
the healing session with those tiny tealights flickering
the funny priest during the confession
the silly games we played with my slipper dropping off
and having to walk barefooted on the grass
and also having to bathe in the flooded male toilet
with its threat of the toad

going to the kelong for a summer getaway
with the pretty little island
i wonder how it is nowafter the tsunami hit
maybe i wouldnt get to see it again?

being excited for confirmation and finally being confirmed
and me forgetting to say the correct words!

my silly crush
and finally ending my silly crush after so many months

carolyn's sweet sixteen outing
munching on ribs at kenny roggers
with them clearing away my corn muffin
trying to sneak out the birthday cake
and finally ta-paoing the leftover cake home!

art club farewell
all those pretty presents i recievedthe big big cake!
and the confetti the juniors were throwing down on us
moo foo's guitar performance
sighs
and i have yet to give them farewell presents!):

the death of my goldfishies
a painbut nevertheless for a reason i've yet to find out

getting back chinese o level results
glad to know that i did well
but also sad to know that not everyone was as happy as i was
trying to make sure elf didnt kill herself
and hugging everyone regardless of whether it was a comforting
or a congratulating hug

swimshady's preformance
the day which we also dubbed as the best school day ever
even though i missed most of it
since i was sick and resting at home
but apparently went back down to school after that
the whole female population going mad in the family lounge
im quite sure swim shady didnt ever get such a enthusiastic audience after that

going through the killer prelims
they should be called nastily exhausting exams!
the before and aftermath of prelims
the mugging and mugging and more mugging in the before
and the happy and sadness of the after
the worrying about jc
and the endless jc talks

the bump in the road that jepenga went through together
and im proud to say
managed to move over together
and back as one

the last normal school day
the day before school breaking for us to studyfor the big Os
soccer matches
and playing jacob's ladder!
the yummy cake
and the signing of baby pe teeshirts
and not to forget
the shots we took of ourselves
smiling and looking ahead
confident of going through the up coming exams

the actual mugging for Os
where we were all desprately trying to cram as much as possible
into those little heads of ours
and along the way squeezing out much of our lives
especially those of us studying in school
you would never see the canteen filled with so many peopleyet so filled with silence

taking the exams
stressful
yet smiles of relief on faces after each paper
maybe not on everyone's faces
but on most people's ones
i cried after the amaths paperbut its over i guess
and i can only hope for the best
and finally making it through all the papers
everyone was out partying that night!

then came preparation for the grand grad night
all we seemed to talk about was dresses
shoes earrings and makeup

and the big night
everyone was madeup to look their best
oh maybe everyone but me?
but we had the time of our lives
smiling till our mouths achedand toes cramped from heelies

and wrapping up the year with endless parties
bbqs and gatherings

my trip to nz
gorgeous place

christmas and new year celebrations fly by
so this is the end.
i guess
its now the night of the 1st day of 2005
and im still reminiscing the old 2004 days
but as the clock ticks by
i guess we must also move ontogether and individually
so a new chapter starts for us from monday on
especially for those going on to jc
we're all separated
even though we might be in the same school
maybe same class
but would it still be the same again?
the backdrop and the setting would change
other music would be heard
but our roles in this play of life
would still be the sameand i guess our friendship would never change
even if we might be apartbut our hearts and minds
would always treasure the days we've spent together
the sweet happy innocent days filled with laughter
and the stressful times we've had to endure
and its because of these memories we've share
that will bond our hearts tightly together
till the end (:
thank you for all those who've made these year special
theres too many of youand little nitty gritty details to ever fully recall
and to thank
but regardless of it all
thank you for 2004 (:

footprints in the sand
Saturday, January 01, 2005



i miss the art room ):
the plastic paint smells
the scratchy sound of the radio blasting
the late afternoon heat
and the room full of people painting away
all obsessed in bringing out the world without words
i sort of wish for st nicks
and at the same time cant wait to be in a totally different school
its been a while since ive studied somewhere else
urghs
i guess im sort of dreading the days to come
i had a dream about orientation the other day
except it was all st nicks people that i know
not an exceptionally plesant dream
but it wasnt a nightmare too
urghs. this is a terribly meaningless post!

your tears do not wash away your sorrows
but they feed someone else's joys


footprints in the sand




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