insecurities of a starfish

two papers down
i cant get any happier than that! :D
TWO DREADED PAPERS DOWN
oh well maths is dreaded too
but its too far away to count
or at least i'd like to believe (:
actually, i kinda feel that my life
is pretty much allocative efficient
there is not much rearrangement
you can possibly do to make things any better
in some kinda odd ways (:

And I loved deeper
And I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness
I'd been denyin'
And he said some day
I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dyin'

footprints in the sand Tuesday, June 28, 2005

If I could reach the stars
I'd pull one down for you
Shine it on my heart so you could see the truth
That this love I have inside is everything it seems
But for now I find it's only in my dreams

That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You will think my love was really something good
Baby if I could change the world

If I could be king even for a day
I'd take you as my queen
I'd have it no other way
And our love will rule in this kingdom we have made
Till then I'd be a fool wishin' for the day

That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You will think my love was really something good
Baby if I could change the world
Baby if I could change the world

That I can change the world
I would be the sunlight in your universe
You will think my love was really something good
Baby if I could change the world
Baby if I could change the world
Baby if I could change the world

it's in some strange ways
my song for you
bye -

footprints in the sand Friday, June 24, 2005

o1.what do your friends call you?
tocks, tockies, wantock!
o2. is your bestfriend a girl?
yupp
o3. do you wear make-up?
the occasional mascara and gloss
o4. do you wear shoes with high heels?
not really
o5. do you like wearing dresses?
nooo. i feel so restricted
o6. do you have short or long hair?
funky short hair. okay its pretty funky lahh
o7. one length or layered?
layered
o8. how long does it take you to fix yourself up?
half an hour? that includes shower time!
o9. do you have a makeup kit?
not really, they're just thrown all over the place
10. if yes, what's inside?
mascara, lip gloss, nail polish.
11. how long do you take a bath?
fifteen to twenty minutes
12. do you use conditioner?
yupp. im like addicted to it or somethg
13. how do you dry your hair?
towel dry
14. what's your usual hairstyle?
errr. it looks the same everyday
15. do you panic if you have a pimple?
if its in the middle of my cheeks or somethg
16. do you often go to the salon?
define often. every 2-3 months!
17. when was the last time you went to the salon?
day before gp paper. hahhhas.
18. what did you do in the salon?
cut my hair lahh
20. rebond? have you tried?
nope. i cant, my hair's too short
21. do you paint your nails?
clear with glitter. i paint my toes, not fingers (:
22. what's your casual wear?
teeshirt shorts and slippers
23. rubber shoes or sandals?
nonee. how about flipflops!
24. how many piercings do you have?
three on my earlobes
25. do you go on a diet?
im too much of a pig to succeed
26. what brand do you like?
no special preferences (:
27. do you have "rituals" before sleeping?
stretch abit, drink half a glass of water
29. do you fix yourself anywhere?
huh? plastic surgery?? nooo
30. do you stay inside the toilet for a long time?
not really
31. do you have lots of crushes and share them withfriends?
hahahas. of course i share
32. do you blush whenever you see that special person?
depends on the intensity of liking. i try not to (:
33. what do you like in a guy?
sense of humour, confidence
34. is it fun being a girl?
its too cool to be true (:
35. what do you feel answering this?
nothing. my comp is lagging. typing is hard /:

footprints in the sand Sunday, June 19, 2005

We held hands and laughed
Then we jumped in the water
Off the jetty we’d fly
As the sun got hotter
We were any age
Floating through space
Happy for once in the human race
On this sweet sunday and into monday
Your arms wrapped around me
Where my love has found me
But am I really free

If I could read your mind
I hope I’d find
The same love I have in mine
If I could go back in time
I’d try to find you
And make up for all this wasted time

Like a broken record
I’ve stayed protected
From promises
from disappointments
I wanna hear your dreams wanna drift away
Wanna break you in
Oh I wanna stay
Stay in heaven oh in heaven
And see my life finally begin
Will we be together oh forever
Darling please let me in

i like rediscovering nice songs (:
some songs that are so familiar
but forgotten and left aside for a really long while
woohoooo (:

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i want the HUGGEE beanbag in my room
I REALLY REALLY DO
its like half the size of my bed!!
i can treat it as a bed
doubles as a chair
triples as a punching bag
quadruples ?! as a boyfriend
hehh. cos i can hug it (:
but my parents decided to be practical
and got me some wooden bench instead
which is really quite pretty
but pales in comparison next to a beanbag
which happens to be like
738494901495894dollars ):
ive always wanted a beanbag
like a big one
all my life
sighhh ):

the clock's ticking away
im another day closer to
the much dreaded exams
GEORGRAPHY
dies /:
i think i do try to study
but most of the time
i dont succeed
failed attempts to study
some effort marks please?

Poverty stole your golden shoes
but it didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me

footprints in the sand Saturday, June 18, 2005

why is it that all the best
and yummiest foods
happen to be the fattiest
the most unhealthy
and worse kinda food around?!
i was just randomly listing
out the food i have a terrible
inhumane craving for!
eggtarts, prata
ice cream, brownie
doughnuts, laksa
pizza, oyster egg
fried kway teow
i should stop before i start drooling
yummmmy

is it because of the fact that its unhealthy
and sinful
thats what makes it so goood
like how people always
do precisely the worst things possible

im impressed
eating one small cube of chocolate
inspires all these words
hmmmms (:
ohh well
it is macadamia nut chocolate!

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore

footprints in the sand Wednesday, June 15, 2005

POCKOLOGY
since the society condemns people
and the society is made up of people
doesnt that make us
both the victim and culprit

food for thought
provided by someone
who has finally started to make sense
and started spewing wise words
ahahahhs (:

footprints in the sand Friday, June 10, 2005

my days seem to be passing quickly again!
urghs.
i hate routine days
when i sit next to the computer all day
and try to force bits of information
into this head of mine ):

i wonder if all the crap im feeling
is possibly due to myself?
and the fact that i allow myself to
think about unhappy days
and keep missing the supposedly happier days
long time ago
suddenly im missing st nicks days again
they were..
simpler, more common
boring even at times
but there's always this sense of comfort
and there were less things to worry about
lesser problems to flood the mind
and that send tears flowing

i need more feel-good food!
hahahs (:
like cookies and cream icecream!!
-licks lips-
yummmy!
sinfully fattening though
i feel like eating dim sum too
hmmmms (:
ding tai feng!!
and sushi
ahahahs. i guess the only thing
that will always be the same
is the plain fact that im a glutton
i live to eat
and always will (:

animal outing was a minor failure
dont think we enjoyed the movie
and after that
it was just some random time spent together
RAAHH
i like sunburnt penguins though
hehhh
move it move it!

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything
Everything

footprints in the sand Thursday, June 09, 2005

i now look like a half cooked lobster
my entire shoulders and back is red.
ahahhas.
it hurts!!! ):
but i guess it's kinda worth the fun
sentosa sentosa!
with the 20kg big fish
and the retarded vball game
and sand fights!
i wanna go again
in a nice big shirt this time please (:

footprints in the sand Monday, June 06, 2005

we're always saying things like
"he's SO NOT my type"
so how exactly do you define TYPE?
is there really a definite boundary
of what is your type and what isnt?
maybe for clothes, accessories
it can be a little true
but for humans, can it be applied in the same way?
humans are after all a many sided creature
theres more than just a few character traits
its a whole and complete being
so if the tests tells me that
my type is a class clown
does it mean i cant fall for a sporty jock
or class president?

and does it also mean that you can only like
a particular type of people and no other kind?
i dont find it quite true for myself
i hope it doesnt apply for you too
cos if it does
im outta the game
im not like her in anyway

a fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
when morning comes it'll be too late

footprints in the sand Saturday, June 04, 2005

i'm pretty much permanently
confused
and like left wondering
i dont wanna think anymore.
i shall just let things flow
okay.
thats a good planA

cant help but wonder whats planB
but yeah NEVERMIND!
no thinking, no thinking

just sorting out some thoughts
no worries!!(:

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i get damn confused at times
its like theres this giant prank being played
and the unsuspecting victim is ME

arghs
actually the whole point of this post
is so i can put song lyrics beneath it
i like the lyrics

i shall therefore help
spongeeee
promote oasis's new album
the importance of idle
since thats where the lyrics came from
get down on your knees and thank me
you yellow thing
hahh (:

But I don't mind
As long as there's a bed beneath the stars that shine
I'll be fine
If you give me a minute
A mans got a limit
You cant get a life if your hearts' not in it

footprints in the sand Thursday, June 02, 2005

im not enjoying the holidays
not quite enough
feeling depressed
for no real reason
and feeling fat
for being a glutton
urghs. urghs
okay nevermind
bad day ):

Each time we we're alone
I guess I didn't know
How far we were apart
Should have spoken from heart
I guess I didn't know
That each time you go away,I cry
I can't take all these goodbyes

footprints in the sand Wednesday, June 01, 2005