things are so screwed now
that i cant even squeeze any tears out
it just seems like everythings going wrong
beginning with my cluelessness about work
then going on to see some major bitch
too much, im sorry if im being biased here
but seriously i feel like i do have a right to feel this way
then ends with my parents getting pissed with
my silence, my heck-careness
and about me not caring about the family enough
she never listens when i say im busy
she just thinks oh so busy
then why're you online everyday then
the pain inside just seems to get stronger
its not subsiding
maybe i just sound like some angsty
teenager ranting about her
oh so horrible life
but whatever
im pissed, and thats the truth
the anger, the pain
used to go away
once i talk to people about it
or write it down somewhere
or even just think it through
but now, the pain's not going anywhere
and fact is,
im freaking jealous
even if it was in the past
seeing some scenes
just evokes such feelings
i cant control that
no matter how hard i try to
Here comes the rain againfalling from the starsDrenched in my pain againbecoming who we areAs my memory restsbut never forgets what I lost
Sunday, July 24, 2005
i'm tired
looking forward to the weekend
even though it means
the much dreaded ptm
im sure ms ho is going to bad mouth me
but doesnt matter
i happily told my parents that
my teacher hates me
and that shes going to say
this and say that about me
so they listened and laughed
and didnt really care
that's good.
i need to catch up on some sleep
have been sleeping late
in order to study
i think after 2 years of jc
im going to look old and haggard /:
beauty sleep is so important!
ahahahs
suddenly ive sorted out my priorites
seems like theres so many more important things
and above all
i should get my studies up first! (:
a midyear after-thought
if i ever felt that mugging for o levels was tough
boy, i am so wrong
nowadays i just crash into bed
late at night
in some kind of drunker stupor
and fall asleep without much thought
dreaming time has been reallocted to class time ;)
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live girl
My world...
Has twice as many stars in the sky
footprints in the sand
Thursday, July 21, 2005
its been exactly twelve hours
since ive finished reading
the book
HALF BLOOD PRINCE
it has left me shocked
and lost for words
i read it for six hours
a minute of silence
to mourn the death of
AHEM AHEM please
and someone's a freaking
ASSHOLE! i hate you
you git /:
its an awesome book
thats terribly sad
and yet so important at the same time
it made all the missing pieces
in the entire series fall into place
it's a crucial book
love it, but i hate it too
footprints in the sand
Sunday, July 17, 2005
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footprints in the sand
Monday, July 11, 2005
if you know me well enough
you'd know that i hate repetitive days
cycles that never seem to end
and for me
thats how the first week of the term has been
i frigging hate it
the excitement and fun i used to have
has faded away
some friendships have been put to the test
during the holidays
and have not lived up to it
i detest boring days of
lessons home, lessons home
its disgusting
theres just nothing to do anymore
my life lacks excitement ):
next week gotta be better
or i'll die
i miss jepengai really do
footprints in the sand
Saturday, July 09, 2005
a small boy made my day today
he remembered me!!
and smiled a BIGG SMILE
and waved!!
just imagine
a small boy riding a tricycle waving at you!
ahahahs
so cute
and he kinda stalked me on his tricycle
he remembered me waving at him last time!
and i didnt even remember
till a while later (:
innocent happy smile
so sweet
he just brightened up the day
Like fire and wood and paper and glueOnly a few were born to followAnd the stars will showWhere the waters flowWhere the gardens growThat's where I'll meet youAnd the sun will glowMelting all the snowKnowing all I knowThat's where I'll meet you
footprints in the sand
Thursday, July 07, 2005
i got fatter
so ive been told by several people
and i think so too
urghs
okay I AM FATTER!
oh die fats die ):
my sugar intake really has to start
going down
its the sugar /:
maybe i should change to salt
which however
leads to water retention
which makes you fat too
hurrr
cos i aint no hollaFAT girl
ahahhahas
okay that was pretty random (:
im amazed
9days to harry potter
im still at my first book
as in my crash course
on harry lahh
cos its been way long since ive read them
like wayy long (:
however
i have no money
i need someone to sponsor my harry
i shall plead with my mum
but i also need to beg her for cash
to buy some other stuffs
sighhs
if only gold dubloons fell like rain
i think thats how its spelt
as in gold coins (:
I know love is a hot white lightIt knocks you down and then leaves you dryOh how can it be sweet mama tell me whyWhy all loves disciples have to wither and die
footprints in the sand
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
i read somewhere about using frozen bananas
to subsitute icecream
sounded pretty exciting!!
so i decided to freeze a banana
i ended up having to go through
some kind of fight before getting
to eat the frozen banana
the skin was frozen
i had to cut the head open with a pair of scissors
which happens to be meant for paper
okay. no biggie
its just a little sticky and gooey
upon peeling
i discovered that some skin was still
stubbornly stuck on to the banana
so i had to scrape it off with a butterknife
the pains i go through
just to try to sample something new
aahahhas.
the inside wasnt really frozen though
so lesson learnt -
peel before you freeze
footprints in the sand
Saturday, July 02, 2005
we ( val, feli and jan )
have decided that
they wont vote me out first
if jepenga was sent for survivor
and we had to do tribal council
cos i am a GEORGRAPHER!
ahahahas
and val's going to get booted
cos who needs CHEMISTS in the wild right!
however we need a PHYSICIST
so feli's still needed
actually
who needs a HISTORIAN!
hahahahas (:
its really amusing
to think about it
like we're so damned different
and they decided that
if they gave food rations
i would be the first to start stealing frm the supplies
and jan will collect the foods
and spear fishes (:
And as we wind on down the roadOur shadows taller than our soulThere walks a lady we all knowWho shines white light and wants to showHow ev’rything still turns to goldAnd if you listen very hardThe tune will come to you at lastWhen all are one and one is allTo be a rock and not to roll
footprints in the sand
THIRTEEN THINGS YOU LOVE:
1. jepenga
2. friends, all those who make me :D
3. twinkling stars and coloured clouds
4. those pretty notebooks i cant bear to ever write on
5. goood foood (:
6. animals, cuddly and sweet things
7. clothes. need i say more? (:
8. glitter
9. mini me
10. sun, sand and sea
11. the smell after the rain
12. chocolate. chocolate
13. god (:
TWELVE MOVIES:
1. two weeks notice
2. how to lose a guy in 10 days
3. minority report
4. HARRY POTTER
5. spider man
6. a walk to remember
7. pearl harbour
8. finding nemo
9. LION KING
10. MULAN
11.
12.
ELEVEN GOOD BANDS:
1. googoo dolls
2. oasis
3. the cardigans
4. sixpence none the richer
5. coldplay
6. beachboys
7. matchbox 20
8. is disney choir a band. hehhh
9.
10.
11.
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOU:
1. i like to smile (:
2. i like pigs
3. i'm short
4. i'm quite eccentric
5. hyperactive at times
6. :D
7. love company
8. i sing to myself
9. i like to eat. i appreaciate good food!
10. i'm randomed
NINE GOOD FRIENDS:
1. jepenga no.1
2. jepenga no. 2
3. jepenga no. 3
4. jepenga no. 4
5. jepenga no. 5
6. jepenga no. 6
7. ( i almost typed jepenga no. 7) YOU
8. antheaaa
9. spongeee
EIGHT FAVORITE FOODS/DRINKS:
1. YAMI YOGURT
2. subway
3. water
4. chocolate
5. sugar
6. spice
7. and everything nice
8. tuna
SEVEN THINGS YOU WEAR DAILY :
1. underwear article 1
2. underwear article 2
3. top
4. bottom
5. glasses
6. star chain
7. CHEESY SMILE
SIX THINGS THAT YOU HATE:
1. bitches
2. bengs and lians
3. liars
4. animal cruelty
5. unfairness of life
6. cockroaches
FIVE THINGS YOU DO DAILY:
1. eat
2. sleep
3. stone, no more like pebble
4. walk around aimlessly
5. hunt for food
FOUR TELEVISION SHOWS YOU WATCH:
1. manhunt
2. smallville
3. animal planet documentaries
4.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT:
1. jeans, a good pair of jeans i can go around the world in
2. HARRY POTTER
3. bag (:
TWO THINGS YOU SAY OFTEN:
1. ahahhahas
2. oh mannn thats damn dumb lahh
WHO YOU COULD SPEND THE REST OF YOURLIFE WITH:
myself (: i'm probably the only one who can put up with me
footprints in the sand
Friday, July 01, 2005
i'm enjoying my few days
of supposed freedom
before the maths paper
i dont think im planning to study
not much anyway /:
im just going to FAIL FAIL IT!!
oh well
ive just lost the momentum that
kinda got ignited by the georgraphy paper
and econs paper
i like being idle
just lazing around
i can almost hear someone
mumurring
THE IMPORTANCE OF BEING IDLE
in the background already
hehhh. -.-
I know love is a hot white lightIt knocks you down and then leaves you dryOh how can it be sweet mama tell me whyWhy all loves disciples have to wither and dieSo if it’s true, that love will never dieThen why do the lovers work so hardTo stay alive
footprints in the sand
